Sunday, June 24, 2012

Opener of The Way



Undenied Steward  
Keeper of the Dead  
Possessor of the Way  
Opener of the Door  
My Guide Home  
~~Thy Daughter  


In the grip of creation - weaving new fairy-tales and poetry.  Seems opening a vein would be easier at this point.  I am exhausted but still my restless mind produces and my paper defies its whiteness gratefully with the plague of words, thoughts and ideas that flow from the tip of this enchanted stylus.  So much is flowing I cannot seem to keep up.  For I have offered up to the  Opener of the Way and he has answered.  I can only ride the tide of ink and beg to be stained unto my soul!




Sunday, June 3, 2012

Relentless Pursuit of Life

This little gem has been with me for about 3-4 months, found clinging inside my unmentionables after I arrived at work.  Not sure what compelled me to keep this tiny piece of dried vegetation but I simply could not throw it away.  Perhaps because it' s a seed - holding all the promise of life . . .  tenaciously so.



Seeds themselves are wonders of nature to me; for all the majesty of the oak is contained in the tiny acorn, the intoxicating fragrance of a Texas Bluebonnet packed away in the tiny pebble of a seed lets not forget the additive sustenance found in the pistachio nut.  I find that the irritating seeds of the earth, stickers and burrs, to be far more fascinating.  I marvel at natures ferocious will to survive in propagating her creations, especially flora.  Unlike fauna, flora is fixed more or less.  Ingenious must be the designs to continue.  Stickers and burrs seem to herald the unwavering commitment to survival, the  relentless promise of future life.

With this in mind I decided to take a few close up pictures of my particular sticker and to research burrs in general  Of course this led me on a trip outdoors into my very own yard to see the flora that it contains, seeking the root so to speak of my burr.  I found two varieties in the wilds of my yard that insure the next generation with burrs.



This lovely, delicate plant (above), so tiny is a vine-like ground cover found in my backyard twined in between the feet of my own majestic oaks called Circaea or Enchanters Nightshade named for Circe.  Enchanting bit of info, pun intended, to stumble across.





Sadly my burr was not from the Enchanting Nightshade family.  My burr came from my front yard and is named Calyptocarpus Vialis, more commonly called the Straggler Daisy or Horseherb.  Not glamorous and considered an invasive weed by some in Texas but attractive to mine eyes nonetheless.  Again this ground cover has tiny flowers like the Enchanters Nightshade, though they are miniature yellow daisies. Considered a detriment to the connoisseur of the perfect lawn I do enjoy the clover-like color and feel of my lawn (sans the dried burrs of course).  Burrs to come from the backyard later I am sure.  Then perhaps I will add an Enchanters Nightshade burr to my collection.



Still can't throw away this little gem - no matter common straggler of a daisy or ancient ingredient in Circe's magic I am snagged by the burr.  The close ups of my burr revealed an alien beauty and symmetry I find captivating.  Thus this fierce fruit stays with me reminding to cling to what is important, creating the opportunities to find that fertile soil to flourish  . . . tenaciously so







Friday, April 27, 2012

Haloed Ascension

I just love the Sun.   Here the Divine Uncreated One heralds his ascension in such haloed glory.  I definitely connect with  ancient civilizations association of  a creator deity and the sun.  The rising of the sun is indeed like a birthing.  This daily miracle is spiritually moving, bringing life in its various forms and stages to our tiny jeweled marble, nestled so comfortably in the deeps of the cosmos surrounded by an entire family of suns in our Milky Way community. 

So yet again today I am in awe of our smallish yellow star and how the simple act of planetary rotation fills me daily with connectedness to my deities; reminding me how small yet significant we all are.  The next time you wake at sunrise, take five minutes and step outside and just breathe in the glory of the sun's daily birth.


Friday, April 20, 2012

Anchoring Inspiration

What anchors and inspires me the most?  My beloved, as partially seen here in his bare chested sexiness and his very kingly beard, anchors me in his totally non-judgmental spirit, his true love and his unswerving faith in myself and in a different spiritual belief structure yet same deity as I.

The other anchoring inspiration is seen protecting my beloved's heart.  The ancient Egyptian Ankh. . .the symbol of sacred life.  My faith, my belief structure that hinges on this lovely ankh - the key, the symbol of sacred life - this anchors my KA or spirit, inspires me to be a better human, keeps me open to all that is good, shielding me from all that is destructive to my being.

Combined with the holiness in my beloveds spirit . . .truly my deities watch over me, actively working for my wholeness as a being.  How can I not be anchored in this now and inspired by all that is me coming into being?

Sunday, April 8, 2012

New Adventures Down Old Roads

At the end of March I turned another year older - funny the 19 year old inside doesn't feel any older.  But I am definitely into my 40s and not only am I okay with it, but rocking it I feel - I am enjoying who I am and where I am in life.  For my birthday I treated myself to a wonderful tarot reading from my friend Sophie at Sophie's Wisdom Tarot..  Something I have been doing for 20 years is giving myself a yearly reading as a birthday present.  I learned  somethings about myself that I think down deep I already knew this time.  Sophie's fantastic intuition with her compassion and understanding really brought home what I need to do, what I need to avoid, what I need to embrace and what I need to let go so hopefully this humble artisan priestess can meet her gods with grace.

As usual I have many plates and all my plates are full - a situation this quirky slightly OCD personality enjoys. Of course there is schoolwork, day work, artistic endeavors that take the form of gemstones, metal clay, photography and of course my writing that seems to possess my soul and drive everything else into the dust.   My spirituality however must take center stage then family.  Seems each of my plates are sections of my life.  This new year (my new year that commenced on the day of my birth this year) I have decided must be restructured.  My spirituality is now the house where my table and plates resides.

So time for schoolwork, time for day work and as always writing takes me over whenever it pleases.  Most importantly there will be time to relax, time to mediate and time to just focus on my deities.  I always have time to snap images of the Sun or trees that let me see the nymphs inside.

New words are building to be written forth, new characters from old manuscripts are clamoring for their stories to be told and new adventures are being laid open down old roads for me and my pencil.  Here are more pics of the lovely Texas Bluebonnets that frame my ride to and from work like a heady parade and wonderful trees that sing their praises to RA daily.

 






Friday, February 24, 2012

Yellow Seville

Dreamed the other night of my beloved and I roaming an empty earth in a pale yellow Cadillac Seville, just he and I.  A world empty of humans and large animals.  But we are following something - a trail, a scent, a feeling.  Following this urge through the desert and deserted towns.  Saddened at the loss of life.  An empty husk of a world that seemed to belong to my mate, I, the trees,the sun and that yellow Seville.



Monday, February 20, 2012

Mated Pairs

Waking- Sleeping Dream of my beloved and I being a mated pair.  Mated beyond marriage or desire.  A mating of souls, purpose, our very essence was mated - complimenting each other.  We were pursuing an agenda to help those less fortunate when we ran afoul of a male and a female.  This couple was as fair to look on as we.  While my beloved and I were dark of hair this pair was light headed.

I had a set of magic cards I used to help divine our next move and figure out who these two were.  I drew a 69 - which had no sexual connotation at all.  The card signified mated pairs and the 6 & 9 were placed together like yin/yang however instead of white and black it was white and red like blood.  They too were mated - one in purpose, desire and design.  Their purpose was to thwart our purpose.  The magic cards which shimmered with quantum doorways was very specific that neither pair was right or wrong / good or evil, we each simply had a job and function to keep the "machine of life" working.



I had this dreams several days ago and it has worked on my conscious and subconscious in so many way and so many levels.  Much deeper meaning than what it first appeared to be.  Reflection has brought new imagery, new revelations, hidden in plane sight messages from Osiris and Ra.  Tine of change, transformation, opening doorways, creating new paths to follow . . .

My journey deepens, I wont say darkens but it is a very solitary one my mated pair and I are on. . . for My Gods and His has ordained it so.

The story takes a turn the next night in the Yellow Seville